9/24/15 Notes to Myself:Time, is it real? Can I beat the clock? Do I want to? If so why? Did you ever consider the "function" of time in your life? I realize I have walked with an energy that is constantly saying "you better hurry up....time's a wasting." It hasn't been age related. I have always felt like I need to be going somewhere. And if I'm not going somewhere or doing something, the big question has been ...then what? What if I'm not going anywhere? What if I can't control where I might be going because I'm just going? It's my suspicion that we come into the world with this innate awareness of our physical impermanence. Perhaps that drives a lot of physical behavior. I think we tend to lose our awareness of a connection to something much larger than our physical nature. And as much as we might try to control the speed of time by working harder at anything....it doesn't change the fact that we are, as physical beings, impermanent. There is no escaping that no matter how fast we are. If the only aspect of time that counts is NOW and I only have so many NOWS on this earth there is no CLOCK to "Beat" and life is not a race I have to run. I believe the human experience is one I can enjoy and treat with respect and responsibility but I can only do that in the present moment. This is an equal opportunity where no clocks are needed just kindness and appreciation for our united physical impermanence.
